this post is specially dedicated to everyone out there for making my 18th birthday a blast one, a memorable one, a splendid one and a super duper unforgettable one...... i am truly glad to be surrounded by people who loves me a lot, by people who appreciates me for who i am and by people whom i adore dearly....this message is sincerely from my heart and i just wanna let you guys know that shen loves you guys a lot!!!!

thanks a lot for bringing me into this such wonderful world..and thanks a lot for loving me and in fact pouring me with endless love that i can never repay back..though at times i might be disobedient and stubborn and rebellious, shen still loves mummy and daddy a lot... i am a person who don't express much through words but i just wanna let my family knows that shen can never live in this world without them. thanks for all the gifts on my birthday, dad and mum...shen loves her home a lot!

2) my one and only sister, shir li

thanks a lot for all the suprises on my birthday. though we are million miles apart, i felt as if you are right beside me now....i am truly glad to be blood-related with you and i hope that we can continue being sisters in our next lives too..though at times i might yell or scream or fight with you, those are the precious moments that i learned to be a better person and those are the moments that i learned to appreciate you even more..time really flies fast and now both of us are big girls already..guess it won't be the same anymore but there is a thing that never change and that would be my deepest love for you, sis! thanks for the flowers, the ipod nano, and the card and the blog post too! shen adores u!

3) Gash, my dearest room mate

thanks for the video u did for me on my birthday..and i promise i won't be skeptical anymore about the guitar mystery..lol....i am truly glad that i changed my room on the day i registered in intec because if i had not done that, i would have never met you and my life in intec will be a whole total different.....i am really sorry at times cause shen is a rather messy girl and you have to bear with my childishness at time....but i heart gash a lot for sure...now there is only a month left for us to be roommate..i will definitely appreciate those remaining times.....i do really hope we can continue being roommate even after we fly to aussie!!

4) all my friends and buddies

so now i shall list all those names who make my birthday such a memorable one through celebrations, sms, testimonials and comments.....and e-mails too and messages too and blogs too......well, the list below is arranged at random oder..no preferences k..and if i missed out anybody names, i am truly sorry!..shen is always down with short term memory :)

1) Goh Li Lin
2) Wong Onn Onn
3) Victor Druce
4) Eunice Chong
5) Siang Shu Hua
6) Christina Quah
7) Thanuja
8) Xiang Xiang
9) Jason
10) Seow Lin
11) Cherylyn Tan
12) Leong
13) Bee Fang
14) Miaw Jyi
15) Darlynn Yap
16) Goh Hui Pin
17) Carolyn Eng
18) Hui Qwan
19) Cheryl Low
20) Sau Wai
21) Kuan Chuan
22) Khairunnisak
23) Daniel Tay
24) Ding Yan
25) Mary Anne
26) Chee Wei
27) Uncle Jovie
28) Aunt Maggie
29) Koo Shuk Kuan
30) Sandy Khoo
31) Luah Rui Thyn
32) Lim Wan Yin
33) Cassandra
34) Akmar
35) Melissa Tan
36) Mei Chien
37) Chin Hon Weng
38) Joanne Rui Ying
39) Vivian Hau
40) 健건예

so finally my long waited birthday has finally arrived-29 september..the day where i can be partially regarded as an adult, the day where i can start redrawing more than rm200 from my cimb bank, the day where i have to renew my ic....the day where i am a year older....so no more the small little girl who always hides under her mummy arms.... i know i have many flaws and i vow to try my very best to be a better person in future.. though my 18th brithday will not be a blast and in fact i come from a family who don't really celebrate my birthday, i am glad that i am finally a year older.....so just wanna wish myself happy birthday and may i stop being childish....and i vow to love my life more and to appreciate people around me......


thanks to all family members and my friends both in Malacca and INTEC for accompanying me through out 18 years as a girl who is in search of her true identity! ^^ shen will never be who she is today without the love and supports she received from everyone..love ya!

Though my 18th birthday might be during holidays....or it falls on the day where my daddy and sister won't be around by my side, they already have successfully drive me to tears and joys and happiness..i can't describe my feelings now but something for sure:

alrite this might be a post that is super outdated, a post that i should have put up earlier...but due to many circumstances, i delayed it and ignored it..but finally i have found my final decision to upload it....initially i was reluctant to upload this post for i know it might hurt someone's feelings but eventually she knew it much earlier and i get hell of things from her..ugggg..ok, shen has got over it and time to move on...
for another similar post of this,

http://memoirsofmaryanne.blogspot.com/
(mary anne's blog)


I still could remember those days when i was a small kid together with my sister where both of us who looked like some idiotic kids hanging tanglungs around my house gate..and eventually all our tanglungs burnt....those good old days.....but now i have the chance to celebrate mid autumn festival again with my friends and definitely without any burnt tanglungs too...lol

check out...everyone is smiling!
alrite, perhaps u shud turn around koo..it would be better to see ur smile, lol! :)
(ppl in the pic : maryanne, jason, leslie, john, ong, jen pang, shen and koo)

xiang xiang : do heart shape using the candles!!!!
and upon her commands, everyone was busy arranging the candles in heart shape..
(spot the pop-pops we had.....simply cool to play those stuffs again)

the tanglungs that gash hung around the tree.
if trees have sexes, i am sure this is a female with jewelleries on it and the male trees will be attracted to her...lol

still continuing on our mission to do a heart shape

a very random picture taken by mary anne when everyone is so unprepared especially koo...lol but doesn't she looks adorable? she definitely do.

the crazy wacky ladies of the night.
*xiang xiang, shen, gash, koo*

the whole team who went walking around the jogging pathway carrying tanglungs with many people staring at us...it's not that weird rite? nono....

gotcha...we are just like small kids playing fireworks with our lil mama gash watching upon us..

even the guys got excited playing fireworks..
so don't claim that only gurls are childish.
hypothesis rejeted. :)

conclusion : everyone just get excited seeing the sparkles and fire...

pop-pop war i shall call..
mary anne: attack attack attack leslie!
shen & xiang xiang : run for our lives!!!!!

groupie pic taken by the professional gash.. :)

how could the guys possibly be more amazed with a small fire rather than focusing on the camera? lol ;)....
guys = fire
girls = camera

as usual boys are always more amazed with fire...

sometimes i wish i could just turn back time and undo all my mistakes that i have done...sometimes i wish good moments will last forever and life would be so much simpler than i thought... sometimes i wish everyone will likes me but that's totally impossible because in reality, nobody is perfect, not even me... i used to think that "buat baik akan dibalas baik" but this phrase is just a piece of bullshit.. alrite, now i am using bad words...but do i even care? i cried so many times within these few days till my tears are totally dried up...i lost my appetite on food just simply because of the words he/she uttered to me....sometimes i wish i would only be less emotional...and would be more sensitive towards others' people feelings but somehow that just wasn't me....yes, i might have lost a friends but losing a friend is far more worthwhile than being hurt continuously..and because i lost a friend, i found a whole new bunch of people who really loves me for who i am, a group of friends who will shed my tears when i am crying, friends who would be there for me to hug me when i am down and friends who can really make me laugh again...
so this post is to simply to express my broken heart and this post is also to dedicate my deepest love to four of my friends who were there through out my whole sadness...and thanks for being there to console me, thanks a lot for being my true friends...

To, Gash, Koo, Xiang xiang and Mary Anne, having you guys is seriously a blessing in my life and knowing you guys are the best thing that happened in my life. thanks for loving me for who i am and you guys are seriously my true girlfriends in my heart!

thanks a lot gash for walking all the way to secret recipe to buy my favourite piece of cake to cheer me up..i am glad to be ur roommate and i am glad that i know u.. shen adores gash a lot

dear koo, though at times you might be a bit wacky and crazy, but shen still loves you simply the way you are..you can really make me laugh till my jaws are gone, till my tummy exploded..and sometimes i feel the smile you crave on my face is more meaningful than the smile i made by myself.

to xiang xiang, though you might be super ghairah at times and loves to scream a lot, but with you being there beside me is enough to bring back the happiness in my life...and thanks a lot for taking the whole trouble to find out the true story of everything..and shen definitely appreciates u.
to mary anne, though your heart is broken too, you are still there for me to share my sadness with me and you are ever willing to listen to all my craps and thanks a lot for hugging me when i am sad...love u to pieces, gurl.

i am glad that i know you guys and thanks a lot...i have no words to describe you guys but i am definitely the luckiest person in this world having u guys as my friends..

shen's life would never be perfect without you guys.
and finally i am smiling back because of the joys u guys brought into my life.

endless misery enveloping shen's life. a month ago i was down with severe food poisoning and indigestion in tummy.....where i nearly freaked everyone out for vomiting so frequently..and that was like just a month ago..and now shen is ill again and this time is my throat turn.... i may look fine from the outside but seriously the pain in my throat is killing me.. every word i utter cause the pain, every food i swallow cause the pain too...and for that reason, i am rather quite lately as claimed by my friends...guess preference of talking less is a definite yes yes....

shen's medication

this post is specially dedicated to my one and only dearest sister in my whole life....happy 22nd birthday and may u have a memorable birthday this year!!! sorry for the late birthday card but it's definitely on the way to melbourne now! ;)....hmm, since i am not able to send ur gift to u this year, i spend the whole weekend doing this special video for you...and not being able to send the cd to u, i decided to upload it in youtube..i hope u won't mind....err......remember to watch the video below till the part where i talk...it''s just a message from me to u..hehe..

gosh..after so many friends telling me that i am not stating some gifts that i am able to hold or touch, i have finally edited my birthday list.well, the previous things in my old list are still my must-must items and this is just a few additions to it..lol

13) ODM Pixel Watch Blue
seriously, somebody needs to get me this watch...i have been crushing on this watch for ages....and even if nobody gives me this, i am so gonna save every single sen in my bank account to get a double crash for this watch....uggg..i can't stop admiring it...wake up shen!!!!

14) T-shirts from Topshop

topshops shirts are way too cool..i still could remember last week when xiang and me went into the shop, we are so indulging into every single clothes there but well that's before we see the price and the moment we saw it, we scrambled out..alright, we are not that funny..we just pledge to ourselves that we will save every ounce of our money from that day onwards to get tees at there...

shen is a great fan of cookie monster and elmo...man, i love this shirt so much!

superhereos t-shirts are so cool right now...please take a break superman or batman..
it's time for Batgirl!!!

who say so that shen doesn't love nerds?

the moment i place my laptop in my dkny bag, i have only one mission...to start doing my math project..but too great, i ended up not even reading a single thing from the paper..and guess what i did? i spend the whole two hours in canteen lecturing melissa and carolyn that Xiah is way better than Hero..lol..i am still supporting xiah no matter what happen.. for you guys who are wondering who the hack is Xiah and Hero, they are just some korean guys from a korean boyband..which shen likes a lot..lol.....
and we even ended up playing with my webcam.....too free i supposed?
so i decided to upload the pictures here...for carolyn and melissa to grab them..
enjoy our craziness and cam-whoring skills! :)

don't ask me what i'm doing cuz i do not have a single idea too.i guess i must have spotted somebody passing by...
alrite, only melissa looks the most sane one among the three of us..

so sometimes too sane people will get rejected by camera leaving only the insanes one..

and we just continue shaping up our camera skills..in different places

now shen with her lovey dovey clasmates!!
shen, atiqah, mariam & akmar...
love u guys a lot!

say cheese! >.<

shen : oops i did it again!
melissa : what the heck shen?? why that song again?
carolyn : don't my tongue look sexy? (haha carolyn is so gonna kill me for this)

carolyn : sob sob..i want candy! somebody buy for me now pleaze!
shen : yer.....see lar that gurl beside me cry again
melissa : aiks....so big ad still cry...

carolyn : look i got a huge pimple on my face
shen : scream scream..omg...how r u going to see ur date tonite?
melissa : hey that pimple is super geli!

THIS IS DEFINITELY MY MOST FAVOURITE PICTURE!!!!
shen: oopss.s..i think i have eaten carolyn and melissa
lol... just kidding

the prints on my shirt..i'm so lovin' it..i have no idea y but recently, i am really attracted to prints on shirt.... addiction...mummy is so gonna be furious with me if she ever find outs the number of new clothes in my closet in akasia!