As i grew older i eventually knew life is never fair. it is so absurd to claim life is fair.
perhaps i am miles away from my parents and my family that i start to hide all my feelings.
i find it hard to spill out for i know everyone would said i am being stupid and fussing about trivial matters.
my first semester is coming to an end.
yeah i do look fine in
facebook or in real life but deep down i know i wasn't fine.
maybe i am just being oversensitive and thinking too much. but it wasn't my fault when things refuse to go smoothly in my life in
queensland.
i claimed i was doomed then i took it back.
but now i won't say i was doomed i would claimed that i am totally doomed.
SUPER DOOMED.
i do not know how to tell people what happened in my blog cause there are too many of them. clarifying that it has nothing to do with my friends and my houses....
just something concerning my studies.
no matter how much effort i put it from waking up at three till studying till eleven at night it just wouldn't work for me. no matter how much effort i put in my lab report, doing a much more
precise than the others, i would always remain with a B. no
mattter how much effort i put in my oral presentation and no matter how well i spoke, my tutor is always stricter than the others. no matter how much i want myself to be lucky again, i am always in the puddle of
unfortunates.
i do not want to make my parents worried bout me.
i know i will somehow survive with these ordeals just like how i did previously.
the problem is that i am only tired of surviving over and over again.
i just hope
sem 2 will be a better one.