Ironic

Life is simply ironic, doesn't it? Sometimes now matter how hard you work for it, if it's never meant to be yours..it will never be. Parents tought us that we should always work hard to achieve our dreams but sometimes no matter how much effort you put it, it will never come to you and sometimes when you hardly do anything, it just comes to you easily. Yeah, sucks but that's the reality that life is full of unfairness. In fact, I'm so getting used to it.

In fairy tales, there are characters that live "happily" ever after but that doesn't work in real life. Reality check. My sister disliked me being sad, down or tattered. But I'm so lost with the things I want in my life right now. I always felt that something important is missing in my life and probably I was just trying too hard to seek for a certain ideal life which rarely exist.

Dissatisfaction with life isn't a big deal, right? In fact it's just a matter of how a person looks into their life. I should probably learn to look at the big picture and learn to realize that things may not be perfect, but they are simply wonderful. Appreciation, simplicity and satisfaction are what I should cultivate in my inner self. And true happiness too.

And there's always someone out there who loves me a lot.

Whom adore me for who I am.

so what's there not to be happy with life, right?

yes, shen.

"Smile as you hit the bumps in the road and savor the best moments- and with that, you will achieve the happily ever after you seek"

Assurance

"When everyone wants you to be that someone whom you can never be"

For the past 21 years, I wondered over my existence in this world. Is it merely a burden? What's the main point of living in this world? Is it all about chasing after your dreams (living in a huge house with a six figure salary, driving the most posh car and dressing up in the best wardrobe range ever?) or is it just about attaining happiness from the simplest thing in life (driving kids to school, eating the most delicious food ever and doing things that you enjoy most in your life)? Chasing after your dreams does not guarantee happiness and likewise, happiness is temporary only. So tell me what is the purpose of choosing either one when both do not seem to guarantee anything at all?

So much of being popular..

I ditched my long-established blog for varied reasons, either i am tired of it or hate the fact that

too many people knew about my blog. Despite many years back I would have forked all the way

out to publicize my blog, I would not do it now. I grew up. Back then, all I wanted to be was popular, to be known, to be pretty, to be the one and only one. Those days when i wanted to be everything that everyone wanted to be. Back then, I thought life was all about being popular and getting recognized from people. But surprisingly as i grew up, I begin to hide under my shell, isolating myself from the outside and keep hidden secrets within myself. I find it difficult to express what I hold beneath my heart and felt alone occasionally. I wasn't a special person and wasn't someone's special too. My life is plain boring, revolving around myself only. And as i grew up, I realized I was more complex than ever. Was it just a part of growing up? Or just the something that was only found in me? Right now, all I want in my life is to do the things that I

always wanted to do and care less of others' opinions on me.I may not be awesome but I can never change who I am.

and probably one day, I will be a superhero in myself.