Farewell

why do farewell even exist? i hate it. i despise it.
someone came into your life and the next moment, it was time for her/him to leave.
i am a total loser when it comes to such things.
i do not enjoy the feeling of looking at someone as you move further away and i do not enjoy the feeling of crying alone in the bus/house. and i definitely do not enjoy the feeling of reminiscing the happy moments we had. and somehow i am pretty lousy in keeping in touch with people and that's the main reason i lost in contact with most of my friends.

sis came to Brisbane last week and she left this morning. her presence brought so much laughter to my gloomy small house and when she left, her absence in the house is deeply felt. she wasn't there to babble with me about Korean dramas, Korean guys, Korean girls or gossip about pretty girls or handsome boys or share our thoughts on fashion. it was as if half of me had vanished.

i was not the best host for sure. with the frequent mood swings due to women's so called good friend, i was rather down, grumpy or emo. it sucks for sure. but despite everything, i enjoy every moment i had with my sister. and now without her, i felt pretty aimless. and lost not knowing what to do next or later.

life is always like that, huh? hello and then bye bye?

it gets pretty tiring when you are experiencing the same feeling over and over again.
so yeah, i miss my sis so much but i know i will see her again soon and then i will be leaving her again. and
sometimes i just wish the moon is square and everything does not happen in cycles.